What are the voices inside your head?
Hi sweet folks!
Is it only me or is time just flying? As again I find myself in front of my computer screen wondering what I have in me that could be bright, inspiring, simply loving or just good enough to bring us closer to each other… Too often we can feel life is like a carousel; it’s beautiful, music is sweet, the colors are vivid and appealing but soon we realize that the fake horse doesn’t take us anywhere other than this everlasting same circular scenery, we kinda feel it’s time to step off, stop the circus and walk with our own legs towards a different horizon.
These past days I’ve been feeling really really good, consciously feeding my heart and mind with the truth of what I really am and what I’m meant to live. Every day I am challenged to do either what I know is right for me or just say “Whatever… I’ll do what I feel like doing and don’t care about the consequences”. When I chose that second option of “whatever, I don’t care” it always brings me away from what I really desire to be and live, but what for? to satisfy a very short term pleasure?… For the opposite, when I do what I believe deep inside is right, I can appreciate so much more my own freedom of choice and enjoy the long term and empowering sensation of walking the right path.
I want to share with you something that helped me make those right choices! Every day I have a talk with myself, many times a day in fact…lol… I know it sounds weird, but to actually THINK is something I’m still learning to do! What am I telling myself?lol well… I tell myself “I am a beautiful person, so that is why today I am choosing to eat the proper food to keep being this way”, “I am a woman of conviction, that is why I will stand by my word and do what I said” “I am a loving friend, that is why today I will go out of my way to help others”. The truth is that I know perfectly well I can and want to improve in each of these areas. I want to continuously work on my body, my mind, my heart, my qualities, my abilities, BUT when I talk to myself like this, I am in fact saying out loud what I believe I’m meant to be even if I’m not perfectly “IT” right now.
Sometimes I feel stressed, I feel I don’t have what it takes to wear “Miss Isabel’s shoes”, I have thoughts in my head telling me all kinds of negative stuff that only lead me to isolate myself, hide, put on a fake face and lay low to make sure no one would notice me… Do I have to cope and keep these thoughts? NO! I have learnt and still practice to push away the thoughts and fight back!!! Music is so true, so precious that I can’t live in it and be hand in hand with lies… It’s one excellent place where I have to let go, be totally defenseless and expose my true heart. Not only because it’s music and it touches me deep inside, but also because I see and hear my brothers, my band mates, who are themselves dedicated to be true and to let go of their own boundaries and limits!
Being confronted in what we are by being open to what others are living and what they would say… it’s a scary thing! But once we realize how it can make us grow… we see how much of a treasure it is… and how much we miss by running away from it… Someone said “iron sharpens iron”. Do we want to be sharp? or only “look” sharp? and if we want to BE sharp, to shine, to be relevant, impacting people around us… are we willing to be sharpened?;) Are we avoiding confrontation with every possible tactic from agreeing with everyone or by staying away from everyone and laying low? Or… are we true to ourselves keeping a humble heart to hear and think about what others have to say to help us grow and become even better.
It is NOT easy, I personally struggled for a long time just to WANT to hear what others have to say about me in a positive way, but believe me… it IS POSSIBLE because I am experiencing it right now and I am so amazed at how I can grow, become a better person, see new horizons, touch amazing things, feel much better about myself, believe even more in love and hope…it’s not a carousel…turning round and round…it’s LIFE!
What are the voices inside your head?
You can count on us to always be behind you and tell you how we believe in you and think you are amazing… and you can count on us also to always be there to remind you and encourage you that there IS MORE for you!!!
-Miss Isabel
“BLA BLA BLA THE LIVE SHOW”
Tags: Miss Isabel's Diary, Music, Tour, YFE, Your Favorite Enemies
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Anonymous
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really good.. I see what you mean when you talk about accepting what others have to say about you and being free… there is nothing to be afraid of when we think about it…and… everything will bring us closer to freedom and life if we let ourselves go… well said miss isabel!!
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Cassandra Bailey
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What a wonderful entry Isabel! You are always so inspiring but I found this one to be particularly so. I love the way you began – with the metaphor of the carrousel and the fake horse. And the idea of making a conscious effort to talk to oneself and work through the thoughts and decisions we have to make every day. How true. How important it is to be so aware of each moment (though I also believe that daydreaming and losing ones awareness from time to time is wonderful too – that 's where I think creativity comes from) and to choose what we do. Perhaps the most important thing you wrote was how crucial it is for us to open up to positivity and accept the good things about ourselves – we are always so ready to believe the negative things – it's time to focus on the positive! Thanks for writing Isabel and sharing your thoughts. I think you are a wonderful, kind and generous person. I hope you accept those positive feelings!
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Vanessa Beaudoin
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This is probably one of my favorites!! Probably because it talks to me alot… I have a voice in my head too and it's been pretty negative lately… I started to rethink everything about myself. My talents, my relationships, my choices… I am constantly battleling the voice telling me that I am not liked… that people have forgotten about me… that people are disappointed in me. It is heavy and it becomes hard to shine when you feel so alone except for that stupid voice feeding youself lies… The more I listen to it the more I am alone… so I guess that means I have a big battle up ahead but I guess its time to strap up my gear and head out for war.
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Tobiatk
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"what are the voices inside your head?" the voices in my head are saying no Tobi put the knife down, these are good people they dont diserve this. But i just block them out and carry on.Haha
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Mary Beth's mom
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hi dear Isabel!!!Once again as the carousel of your life has circled around to diary time, you have reached down deep inside and pulled out words that have the power to free yourself and others – it's a crucial balance that you address here – the balance between what we "tell ourselves" and what we allow to enter our hearts from the words of others about us..both of those avenues into our spirits require some careful filtering and a humble and courageous willingness to see beyond our own current image of ourselves.. We all have blindspots (boy, do i know i do!!), and others can help us tear away the veils that trap us there, but they can also throw us into a tailspin dive if we allow their own pain and anger at themselves to be imputed to us (you know that of course!) We all have a knowing deep inside us of what is right and true – you proclaim it so powerfully in the positive words you choose to speak to yourself – and somehow in this sharing and brave openness with those who have been brought into our lives, we can all come closer and closer to becoming the truth that lives within us..thanks for taking me closer every time we interact – through these diaries and in every other way – you are a miracle…love you always!!!! mom e
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