A friend loves at all times…
a brother (and a sister) is
present in times of need…”
– Solomon’s Proverb
I feel lucky to write to you today, knowing you always welcomed my heart in a loving way.
Forgive me if I had you worried, I’m in a very defining period of my life right now. I feel blessed to have my family’s support regarding my decision to mark a pause, as I desire to renew my perspective, heal old wounds, discover more about myself and get prepared seriously for what’s coming up. I felt it was essential to take that time apart, as I know there is no shame in realizing we need to rest and reboot, knowing that if I don’t do it, I just won’t be able to take the next step in my life, in my art, in my relationships and in so much more.
Over the years, I’ve seen the guys of the band evolve in tremendous ways. Growing up, despite the constant pressure to stand by their decisions… Decisions to “be”, “behave” and “assume”. Decisions which at times seemed to me as a completely crazy path to follow. When you’re always exposed, the voices of the enemies calling you sister (or brother as Alex sang in the song ”Old Noisy Friend”) only to put you down, when you’re weak and exhausted, are a clamour that is hard to silence after hearing it for so long. They’re taking away the real voices and dragging you completely down. I wished I could have screamed back, but I didn’t have the strength or the courage to do so. It’s hard to admit so and even harder to work on it, but I need to do it.
”Vague Souvenir” has been the trigger. It led me to see myself more truly. This album is so true that it shined an undeniable light on me… And this time, I don’t want to close my eyes and keep pretending that I am strong enough to keep living as if nothing lighted up in my heart. That’s why I accepted the invitation to see, to take the risk of living and letting go of everything. Risking to lose it all… but also risking to find real peace, real love and real fulfillment, regardless of my past, regardless of what I may be going through, and regardless of the fear of what’s ahead. By taking the risk to “be”, “behave” and “assume”, as Alex wrote about in his blog related to the song ”Turn The Dirt Over”, I want to see and experience life through freedom, so I can not only be a better person, a better sister and friend, but I can simply enjoy “being”.
Freedom, as we can hear about it in the song “Gravitation Des Coeurs”. That’s what I’m meditating about. To be. To take the step of faith to live that journey of joy, which can’t be true when we have filters and when everything is surrounded by a smoke screen. A journey of joy, a shared one, our journey.
I love you with all that I am and understand today, knowing that I’ll love you even more tomorrow. Thank you for joining me on this path to freedom, inspired by the fellowship we all treasure. Today is already beautiful and tomorrow’s promises are more than exciting!
Talk to you real soon my beloved and thank you for your support, your voices are wonderful and are a treasure to me!!!
Miss Isabel
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Anna
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Thank you Miss Isabel for sharing your heart like you did!! Though it’s not always easy to open up this way, showing our darker sides… but by doing this you are definitely inspiring us all. Inspiring us to be free, showing us that the most beautiful gift that we can offer ourselves is to sometimes take a step back and reflect on what we want! I am truly blessed to have you in my life and to witness your growth on a daily basis… keep on shining dear sister… we are all with you!
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britt
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missed you isabel!! glad hear from you 🙂
love you sis! i’ll always be your friend 🙂
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Elizabeth
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Dear Isabel!!!!
I just found your blog!! I did not notice that it had been released yesterday – I cannot tell you how blessed i am to read your words!!! I am VERY glad that you took much needed time to heal and recharge and prepare your heart for what is to come!!! I have missed your glimmering presence and voice in the YFE community so much and you know I am not alone in that!!! Your precious “glimmer” is hard to describe, but it is only made stronger and more vibrant and even more radically beautiful by all you have lived – both the “bad” and the “good” – I am so firmly in your corner and your cheering section – i wish you could know how much!! You are a treasure beyond all measure in my heart and in the world, What an honor it is to walk this path to freedom in your company and friendship!! Blessings and much love and endless prayers!!! Looking forward to being with you on the Bla Bla Bla and in Montreal more than you could know!!
love you!!!! HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!! mom eliz
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Bob Dayon
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Thank you so much for the Blog, to help us understand what you have been going through! It will be nice to see you on the next Bla Bla Bla this Sunday morning! I am very glad to be part of this family with you as a brother! Much Love!!!
Bob
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Marjo
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Thank you Miss Isabel for taking the time to write to us and give us some news about you! I once heard that, in life, true friendships unfold true exchanges…I learned that to a friend, you would willingly open up and share the most secret parts of your heart…And as you open up to us today, it makes my heart warm to know that we are “friends”!! May you know that it is a pleasure to walk by your side and accompany you, from close or far, in this life journey of yours!! 🙂
I believe that what you aim for…you already do “have” it all…just let it “be”…and enjoy “behaving” just naturally!! Enjoy being the woman, the artist, the friend, the band mate & sister…you believe you are destined to be! And may you know that it blesses us already to get to know you and discover you…just as you are! 🙂
I wish you all the best in your endeavors my friend!! 🙂
Take good care!
Marjo xx
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Rob
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We truly missed you sis but we are glad that your on your way to being ok. We are all with you in spirit. We love you too. Xoxo
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Aaron
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Welcome back, see you in 23 days.
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