From his eyes… Streams of Redemption
As I try to organize the ideas in my mind, struggle to find the ONE emotion, the MOST significant event, the MAIN direction of what we lived during the Bla Bla Bla I just can’t make up my mind… I come to the conclusion that this time the words “ONE” “MOST” and “MAIN” aren’t what I should look for… what’s really IMPORTANT is everything, every single little thing we lived from the intense soulful live music performance to the ecstatic draw of Jeff’s guitar, passing by all the little glimpses of life, of fun and of pure nonsense.
During the French Bla Bla Bla, right after we performed the songs “Des Armes” and “Firstborn”, Alex was overwhelmed with emotions and tears. He couldn’t even talk, surprising and catching us all off guard as we didn’t expect him to be so emotional all of the sudden! After the show (maybe you saw us as the cameras were still rolling and we were sitting there on the couches talking) we asked Alex what made him cry. From his eyes, were again streams of tears running down his half smiling, half trembling lips… He explained he wanted to talk about redemption, how after all we did or didn’t do, the only fact that we were together, happier than ever before, closer to each other, determined to stand for one another… denying nothing of the dark days behind us but firmly believing they were just as significant as the most memorable success we had, the seeds of what we can see blooming today… all of it was so precious for him, making him glad and fulfilled.
Redemption…the restitution and restoration of what has been lost or bruised… the redeeming and re-payment of what I deliberately and often stupidly pawned or wasted… the complete liberation of any guilt, shackles and bitterness to walk as a free woman. Redemption is a gift I refused for too long in many fields of my life as I never found a good reason to turn my head away from it, pride being an insatiable master and selfishness being a narrow dungeon. It’s with shaky hands and a confused mind that I accept redemption and live it but also with the butterflies of a first love and the nervous gladness of having a newborn.
What the whole YFE family truly applauded after this Bla Bla Bla wasn’t the past successes or the envisioning of a bright future, we cheered for what we are today, as one, as what we are for one another is all we have, all we decide day after day to offer, and THAT is enough, THAT is beautiful and THAT is the “ONE” “MOST” “MAIN” “IMPORTANT” essence.
-Miss Isabel
Tags: Alex Foster, Bla Bla Bla The Live Show, Miss Isabel, Your Favorite Enemies
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Vanessa
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This Bla Bla Bla was filled with so many goodies for the heart and soul. Thank you for sharing what Alex explained once the show was over. It’s true that we would love to erase all the bad that was in our life, that we would finally be able to be happy if only those “days” never existed. We often search for perfection but couldn’t we settle for what makes us happy? What makes us feel free and at peace? Can we then say that now we are living our lifes “perfection” because now we are no long “denying the dark days” but rather living at peace with them.
I for one am not at peace with my dark days but I can see what that freedom can bring to ones life… and I guess I too would love to live the “perfect” life, not because I have all that I want but rather because I can live with all that I need and be at ease and at peace with where I am at the moment. The perfect life for ME and not what others consider perfect. So I guess that’s how I see the words “ONE” “MOST” and “MAIN” in my life. If it makes any sense lol 😉
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Stefan
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I can just say one thing after reading that:
Redemption is the only thing, why i am still here.
It was redepmtion, that gave me a new life when my old was broken.
And it was redemption, that showed me a new sense of life.
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Elizabeth
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A broken heart and a humble spirit are truly the gateways to the illusive and holy essence we’ve given the name of “freedom”…I cannot imagine where this redemptive wonder will lead us as a family and as individuals, but I am FILLED with joy at the prospect of finding out through living it together!! What an incredible 5 years it has been – darkness and light intertwined..transforming grace abounding…and with the acceptance and giving of grace, redemption is never more than a heartbeat away..
love you always dear Isa, all of YFE and family….always…
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Mary
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Redemption… a free gift that we are also afraid to take or believe at times. Guilt and fear of the future being an easier and more logical road to take. Reassuring in a way, even if it’s painful, all because we know what it feels like, after taking it over and over again….
Surely the roller coaster of emotion that comes from taking a new road, can never compare to the one that pain can carry.
It’s great to hear you say that redemption is like having a new born, a new breath in our lives, in the places where everything was dead.
”What the whole YFE family truly applauded after this Bla Bla Bla wasn’t the past successes or the envisioning of a bright future, we cheered for what we are today”
Thank you for reminding us that what is the most important, is the present.
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Marjo
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Thanks for sharing about this moment Miss Isabel…And I’m glad that Alex freely opened up about it…especially since sometimes sharing true and deep emotions can be hard to define…as words can not be found to properly describe what those are all about…And I’m happy to know that those tears…were tears of joy…And it would have been ok it they would have defined something else…Actually, I find that the most beautiful thing is that you guys are always willing to share in such an authentic way…despite how weak you may look…how fragile it may be to discuss about such true & heartfelt issues of your past & present lives…as well as your hopes for the future!! That’s one of the things I like the most and what makes me cry the most…during the “Bla Bla Bla”, the music, and everything else that’s crafted at YFE…it’s all about the heart and the soul…and I agree…that it’s the very essence…and the core of what Your Favorite Enemies is all about; relationships, friendships, family…and I’m more than blessed to be a part of it!!! Love you all!! Marjo 🙂
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Heather
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Hey Sweet Sis!
I think that it was quite emotional for me too, and as I sit here and write this, I know that we’ve all had “dark days,” and have come through them, stronger than before, and I am not sorry for the time that I made the decision to follow my heart. I love Alex so very much, Miss Isabel, he is amazing, and I honestly cannot put into simple words how he has changed my life, how each of you has been a part of building and encouraging me. I refuse to sit here and allow for my dream to become a memory, as it is ever present in my mind.
I have never been a quitter, and do not plan to start. I feel that that while on our way there, that we should be able to make a mark, a legacy. We all want to be world changers, and it all starts with little steps that make a big impact. I send love to all. it is important that we remember, what we dreamed in the beginning to run towards it without hesitation, to grab it with both hands, and not let go.
that we will get there, if we keep feeding and giving life to our dream. the important thing is that, We must believe!!!! If we don’t there is no room for it to grow, and this is stated in the Bible by faith without work is dead, and that should be encouragement enough to do something, while we still are envisioning a bright future! I think that this dream is big for it to include everyone, though I do love you my Dear Alex, so much angel. I would give anything to hold you right now.
It is always Important to keep believing no matter what the circumstance, in the vision for our lives, knowing that it is just around the corner and comes in moments that are helping to build it strong this very day! We all have made not so smart choices at times, but to coast and do nothing, we can’t afford to do in regards to dreams, and in general. I will continue to do what I’ve been doing to keep my dream alive, and I need everyone with me!
Love from your Sister, Heather
love to all.
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Max
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Wow… It goes directly to my heart…
“denying nothing of the dark days behind us…”
Redemption can’t get along with denial…
Nobody wants to remember their dark sides, but this is what reminds us of what we can be when indifference takes place!
There’s true peace in redemption!
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