Cause I’m one of the millions…

ALEX REVEALS EVEN MORE AFTER THE LIVE CHAT!

Hi dear friends!

I hope you’re doing well and I’m glad that you’re doing this little “pit stop” to fill yourself up with some food for thought; a fresh perspective and an occasion to feed hope and passion in your life. This weekend we had the chance to participate in a live chat with a very special topic: the “I Just Want You To Know” lyrics. Alex was ready to answer all questions about it and most of all he brilliantly opened up about, what in his life, he wanted us to know… his heart, his struggles, his desire to live free from his past boundaries and illusions. I left a couple days pass and I asked him a couple questions to get even deeper in what he lived; to see how that sharing was so important to him.

Read carefully and think. Think how you can relate to his experience and how you deal or want to deal your things the same or differently and why not share about it?

I believe amazing things can grow if we let true words coming from a loving heart to be seeded into our soul…Alex asked me to share these seeds with you… it’s up to us to let them penetrate our soul and mind.

-Miss Isabel

Hi Alex!

I have a couple questions for you concerning the live chat we had all together a couple days ago.

You often do videos, Q&A, blogs and facebook stories revealing parts of who you are; sharing what’s in your head and in your heart. But it’s the first time you were doing a very personal LIVE interview about something even more personal: your lyrics.

Why at this point do you want to open up in such way, so open and exposed?

I think, I’ve been hiding for a long time… for many reasons…good or bad. I still have my own demons and my own doubts; the emotional winter has been quite long for me. So long, that at one point, I felt more secure being secluded and isolated than actually seeking a bit of spark to set me free from my own illusions and make-belief. My recurrent physical illness and mental degradation was only feeding that sense of alienation I was feeling towards the gravitation of my spirit accepting the abandonment of my will to care about life any longer.

I was turning a lie I’ve heard so many times being professed over my head into a self-desconstructive truth…I guess whatever had to fit…fits. I wasn’t a victim; I was simply coping out from a world I built myself into… kind of illusive and delusional, but I decided it was time to let go. Being open and exposed isn’t easy for me and never will. But after being dead for so long… I decided it was time for me to fully embrace the new season that I was truly in and to receive the love gently sent my way by so many amazing people. The raging winter of my fears was overcome by love in many ways and I think that for me, sharing my lyrics was a wonderful occasions to feel the breeze of that new blooming season.

We were all in the room when you were about to start the live interview and chat…you were surprisingly comfortable, calm and anticipating with excitement what was about to take place.

Can you explain what journey you had to walk or what obstacles you had to overcome to get there?

Nothing, but what has already been settled in my personal life…like I wrote recently to a very special friend of mine who was wondering what was the nature of what seemed to be a permanent state of grief residing in my eyes… “I’m not misunderstood, I’m ecstatically sad at time”…lol… a lie that had been told too many times becomes a truth for many and I didn’t want to become that lie or some rock n roll cliché.

I was comfortable; because I knew it wasn’t about me…it was about creating life through words that weren’t simply mine anymore. I was one of millions and it was exciting… to let the words be the catharsis of what needed to be freed from. And in many ways, I’ve been freed from many things through the whole process…from writing the music, to the lyrics, the performance and all the interviews that came with it. Words truly have the power to heal when they are sketched with compassionate colours and lay over a canvas of communion…that’s what I felt…

Would that link with what you said during the chat: “I just Want You To Know” helped me heal unsettled wounds in my life”? Was the creation of this specific song a major turning point?

I believe that waking up every single day with my hands open is a daily major turning point…I have rarely been able to let go. I grew up in the mist of constant surrounding of violence and I turned that violence towards myself for the most part of my life…writing from a personal point of view isn’t easy when you want to fully let go and it has never been easy for me to write in that regard. That song is part autobiographic of those wounds and part reflection of other people’s pain, but it doesn’t have the same tone as the previous songs I’ve written…truth could be pretty messy, but the way you deal with that mess could be very positive…”I Just Want You To Know” is very positive…not a happy go lucky type…that’s for sure, but real in every way and knowing that “I Just Want You To Know” is clearly one of the fruits that bloomed out my decision to embrace life, makes it a very important one indeed…

You said that “I just Want You To Know” lyrics were created from a very personal place where dreams seemed so far away…How important is it for the song to relate to your personal story now that the world can sing it?

Cause I’m one of the millions…

What is the first thing you thought when:

1. You woke up the morning of the chat?

That I was very fortunate to be able to share with the people I love; knowing how many people don’t, at the very least, have a right to whisper. I felt humbled towards that and really grateful…love, when taken for granted, becomes the rape of somebody else’s innocence…

2. You were about to start the chat?

As I was observing the incredible dedication of the team members working with so much dedication to make sure everything was perfect…I simply thanked God for having such a fabulous family and simply lived the moment…

3. You saw so many people participating?

I didn’t pay attention to such details in particular…neither do I care about numbers in general…it might be cool when you need to feed your ego out of those vain details, but for me, being able to share with people I love was enough of a moment to open myself without any fears or insecurities…it was real.

4. Big Byrd said “CUT” at the end of the chat?

I was peaceful…

5. When you finally went to bed and at what time?

I don’t actually remember the time I went to bed…it’s always too late anyway, but I do remember thinking, that for every single person being treated like noise, I know that somebody will join and together they will make sounds out of any rejection they ever felt before, because we really are more than noise. I imagined millions of people in the streets creating such a powerful sound, that barriers of oppression, indifference, apathy and abandonment will crumble and that even those rocks will scream their joy of being free… isn’t that what is going on in the world now?

What in this first experience makes you want to do it again with other lyrics?

I don’t know, I have never really been into trying to recreate a moment…Especially one that has been so pure. We’ll see if I have something to add regarding other lyrics and if people might be interested in sharing and exposing themselves again. As I said, a moment like that isn’t something you take for granted. It’s not mine, that’s why I felt so privileged to do so, because it wasn’t about me… but about creating life!

You want to share anything about these quotes of yours?

1. “We’re so much more than noise”…means for Alex that you might be only noise for some people BUT…

2. Your favorite line of the new song “Faith is pretty much like pain…it’s hard to let it go all at once”

3. “perfect balance between emotional breakdown and hopeful colors”

I think it should be for the people reading your diary to define or redefine those quotes, because those lyrics are ours now and I’ll be blessed to witness the sparks of life that will overflow out of it…the beauty of words remain their ability to empower those willing to be…